It's 4 p.m. and we've hit
the afternoon slump, but while I slouch
in my chair my mind is elsewhere,
thinking of the year that just passed us by.
It doesn't feel like the time to buy balloons,
gather around a cake,
nor the time to pack my backpack
with pencils and notebooks,
lace up my shoes and head to school
in the frigid mornings only for the sun
to peek out and make us sweat
forty minutes later.
Another rotation of the four seasons,
of beginnings and endings,
tests and weekends spent trying
to relax but catching up on homework
anyways, and I know I'm dramatizing this
but I can't believe we're already here
again.
In this moment, I am still sitting,
trying to stretch out the day before
everything hits us all at once
and I don't know why I'm so scared
but I am. Sit with me
and let's talk about it.
I hope you enjoyed this piece! It pretty much sums up my feelings about my seventeenth birthday (which was one day ago by the time you’re reading this! Crazy!) and the start of my senior year, which are pretty much intertwined as there’s only 4 days between my birthday and the first day of school. So much has happened and even though senior year is still a whole year that’s ahead, I’m already reflecting on high school and all the time that’s flown by. It’s an emotional and overwhelming time, especially when you add in the chaos of college applications and whatnot. I hope you all are doing well and enjoying the last bits of summer. Stay safe and healthy out there.
Brooke